Since the start of the year I've been desperate for a change. I made five years at my current job and although this recognition should have felt like an accomplishment it didn't. I immediately said "It's been five years already?" I was thinking there was no way it's been that long and if it has it is time for something new. I haven't did anything new in five years? Where is the growth?
Now don't get me wrong, I absolutely love what I do. I'm sure that's exactly why five years flew by. I've received multiple pay increase since being employed with this company; so my job wasn't where my problem lied. My problem was me. Like do you even understand the concept of breaking down the fact that you haven't put yourself in the position to evolve in your career. I can't beat myself up too much because I am in school working towards my RN but what other skills have I acquired during this time? What talents have I learned? I felt as though there was nothing new instilled in me.
NEW JOB ME! ASAP
I began searching, not only for a new job but a new career. Why? Because I felt I was lacking essential skills so now I have to make up for lost time. Trying to figure out what's next for me. So I listed the top three things I'm looking for in my next employer
1. Growth
2. Competitive Wages
3. 8a-4pm
I applied for various positions data analyst, remote customer service, virtual assistant
I put so much stress on myself interviewing for position I knew I wasn't savvy in. I've been in the medical field for ten years. I just needed to find a company that I could utilize the skills I already possess and grow. We all know that looking for a job is a job.
Why are we so hard on ourselves?
One denial letter after another
I became mentally drained, emotionally unavailable, my marriage unsync, my children seeking attention. I knew I needed to release these emotion and what better way to do that than to write. Keeping a journal really put me in a better head space; along with affirmations, and prayers. Yet deep down I am still feeling the lack. I am still searching.
I remember telling my cousin that I am too lazy to start a business. She stated "You're not lazy, you're unmotivated"
Now I'm familiar with the term Unmotivated but something made me research it anyway
UNMOTIVATED: AN EMOTIONAL STATE THAT'S OFTEN ASSOCIATED WITH BEING STUCK OR IN A RUT
That's exactly how I feel........
This is a personal blog as I journey to becoming motivate. It will feature my thoughts and opinions about everyday life, events, and most importantly growth.
I'm beyond excited
Vibe with me, let the magic around you unfold
P.S. Please excuse my grammatical errors, run on sentences, and misspelled words. I will get better with time.
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